Passing thoughts

Tonight has been boring. We specifically chose to stay in the 24 euro albergue  with a kitchen instead of the 10 euro albergue without because making our own dinner is a lot cheaper than a 20 euro meal.

Each day is different but being human we  create routines. The routine is familiar now to the point of actions being taken without words being exchanged. We have established our roles and live by them.

The camino never lets you know what lies ahead. Each day starts with an uncertainty of weather, trail conditions, and what you will eat and where you will sleep. 

In Spain they say that "the camino will provide". They say that no matter what happens you will always find the solution to any problem readily at hand. This goes against my very nature of being prepared for any eventuality. 

I began this trip hoping that the uncertainty would give me something I needed. The ability to let go of the need to control every instant of time. 

In my prior life I had done many things that were naturally against my own well being. Especially while in the army and fighting for my country. Because of this I, like many others developed an unease about anything outside of my control. 

I need at this point in my life to be able to let go of the constant tension and let things happen. This is my number one need and as the Spanish say.....

The camino has provided.